I Love you, I Don’t.

Last night, I learnt two things about you.

One, I will always love you;
Even though you’ve broken me down again and again,
Stomped on my heart, used it as a Frisbee, throwing it and not caring where it lands or who catches it,
Acting like my heart was nothing,
Like my love meant nothing.

Two, you are selfish;
I gave you everything,
You gave me almost nothing,
Taking me for granted in every way possible but I couldn’t see it,
You twisted and turned me,
Your problems were our problems.
My problems were silly.

I loved you…You know I did.
Maybe it was too much,
Maybe my love was too strong,
Maybe you knew you didn’t deserve it.

I probably will always love you
but you no longer have that hold on me.

Actually, No.
I won’t always love you.
I no longer love you.


漏Adeola Matemilola 2017

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Ode to Mother Earth

They forget;
Before they were, I was
Before they took a breathe, I mastered the art
Because of me, they are
They forget to remember that without me, many parts of them would not be
I do so much for them
They do nothing for me

They pinch me,
They kick me,
They cut me;
I don’t feel anything after all
They wound me,
They don’t mind me;
I have no life, they think
They cut me down, strip me bare, continually draining my spirit
Taking more parts of me than I willingly give
And because I am powerless to fight back,
they think I do not know
they think I do not feel
they think I do not hurt

I only wish they knew
I only wish they felt
How I weep every time I am scratched, abused
And everyday as I love them more, I long for them to love me back

I was…


This post was inspired by my beautiful, intelligent sister @filshadzz