I Love you, I Don’t.

Last night, I learnt two things about you.

One, I will always love you;
Even though you’ve broken me down again and again,
Stomped on my heart, used it as a Frisbee, throwing it and not caring where it lands or who catches it,
Acting like my heart was nothing,
Like my love meant nothing.

Two, you are selfish;
I gave you everything,
You gave me almost nothing,
Taking me for granted in every way possible but I couldn’t see it,
You twisted and turned me,
Your problems were our problems.
My problems were silly.

I loved you…You know I did.
Maybe it was too much,
Maybe my love was too strong,
Maybe you knew you didn’t deserve it.

I probably will always love you
but you no longer have that hold on me.

Actually, No.
I won’t always love you.
I no longer love you.


©Adeola Matemilola 2017

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Let’s run away

Let’s do it… right now,
Let’s not think about it,
Eyes opened or closed; it doesn’t matter,
Just imagine…
Let’s let the wind sweep us off our feet,
Let it take us where it may,
Let’s abandon the fear of the known and the unknown,
Replaced with a nervous excitement of come-what-mays,
The fights, the laughs, the moments that take our breath away.
But how long would this last? Who cares?
Let’s do it, let’s take nothing along, let’s run away.


©Adeola Matemilola 2016

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Not quite.

From afar off, he seemed to be everything and more;

adventurous, willing, a real-life superman,

but up close; eyes locked, fingers touching, breathe intermingling,

and I see he is quite quotidian.

©Adeola Matemilola 2015

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This poem only has six words.

This poem only has six words.
Every sentence the exact same number.
This will hold your every attention.
This will keep me on track.
We don’t need too many words.
It makes the message too befuddled.
All I need, the right words.
To get your heart all fuddled.
I can say I love you.
I can say I miss you.
I want to spend all day.
You make my dark days bright.
Stormy days you can make calm.
With that beautiful smile you have.
Your eyes shining bright with love.
My eyes shining back with love.
The message is really quite simple.
Six words enough to get through.
This poem only has six words.
To keep the message simple and sweet.

A simple Christmas story


Sleigh bells, jingles, lights, elves, Christmas trees, red and blue, Christmas lights, Christmas songs… Christmas is here.

“Why isn’t anyone playing Christmas songs?”, the little girl asks
“Real Christmas songs, so no Justin Beiber or Destiny’s Child”

Let’s listen to Christmas hymns, the ones that remind us of that glorious moment when Jesus started on the journey to our redemption, that moment when a young girl realized her life could very well be ruined because “how would she explain this to anyone?”
She could already hear them snickering and whispering behind their open palms, “isn’t that supposed to be Joseph’s virgin wife?”

Let’s listen to real Christmas songs like;
Silent night, Holy night…
Joy to the world, the Lord has come, let earth receive her King…
We three kings of Orient are; bearing gifts we traverse afar,Field and fountain,Moor and mountain, following yonder star…

Picture this, it starts at night, there were men in the field, tending to their flock, we all know this story…
Jesus Christ was born, the King had arrived
I know what you’re thinking, none of this is new to me
But that, right there is the problem I see
We’ve heard this story so much, for so long, some of us since we were born…
‘Jesus Christ came’, ‘Jesus Christ died’, we would pass that exam, so let’s learn new things

So we tuck it in the back of our minds and move on, to the important things of life
not realizing that the most important thing of all is what we have put away.
Our priorities are all wrong; we wake up late and rush to class, prayers can wait
Our “friend” makes a joke that goes against who we should be as Christians and we laugh and ignore that voice that whispers to us to say something
We don’t want to be different, we want to be accepted, we want to be cool.
But we’ve all seen the movie, Jesus hurt so much, He cried
He didn’t do anything to deserve that, it wasn’t His crime
But He took those lashes; if we listen hard, we can hear them whipping across His back,
They put a Crown of thorns upon His head and laughed as it tore through.
It wasn’t anything He did, He didn’t have to die… but He did it, just so you and I can decide.
Can you imagine what love would make a person do that? I have absolutely no words to describe it… its more than any earthly love, its more than we could ever understand, otherwise we would have professors of ‘Jesusology’
Its the kind of love that makes me want to leap for joy, and scream and clap and skip and dance and aarghh!!! Because I know that nobody will ever love me that much.

How I met your mother, glee
Games of thrones, suits
The big bang theory, leverage
Oh and let’s not forget candy crush…

These are the things that take up our time, just one more episode turns into ten
But we can’t take 30 minutes to read our Bible and pray

And when there’s a party and there’s Church, we would rather do the party,
Because we want our friends to like us and accept up

And when there’s an opportunity to talk about Jesus, we stay quiet
Because we want to be liberal, politically correct and respect everyone’s right
Even though we know in our hearts, that this isn’t right

Always assuming that Jesus will understand, He should know that the flesh is weak, after all, He made us
But we forget that the Bible says He won’t test us above what we are able to bear

I know some people are thinking, “I read my bible, I talk about Jesus, so that doesn’t apply to me”
But remember, we are all works in progress
That’s why we can always come back to Jesus and ask for forgiveness

Always remembering that its better to be an outcast now, than to be cast out later.

Adeola Matemilola

My Honest Poem

So, I’m one of those “writers” (not sure if I can call myself that) who almost never writes anything personal, and when I do, it isn’t anything too personal, I prefer to dwell in the fictional.
I guess I just realize how easy it is for the line between fictional and real life to get blurred… plus maybe I’m just a little afraid to let too much of myself out there.

Anyway, enough rambling, I saw a poem performed by someone some time ago titled ‘My honest poem’ and after battling with the decision forever, I decided to do my version of it, hopefully it will be fun and interesting, and I can show myself that it’s not a big deal. I mean what’s the worst that could happen, right? (I just had a thought… that question is what people ask in a movie just before something really awful happens LOL)
And in the interest of full disclosure, you should know I am kinda weird, so please accept me… hehehehe… I’m just kidding, I’m not that bad

So here goes…

I was born on the 22nd of December, I guess that makes me a Capricorn or maybe Sagittarius, depending on what time of the day I was actually born, I could find out, but I really don’t care. So, I’m supposed to be brooding and quiet, organized and an introvert, at least that’s what I’ve gathered from materials I’ve read on the subject, and although I do have these parts to me, it is just a part of me, there are other parts also, I am crazy organized actually, when I arrange stuff, the labels all have to face the same direction, the toothpaste tube has to be squeezed from the bottom, I probably have a slight touch of OCD (okay, enough crazy here, move on)
So, I’m not really sure about the Zodiac sign… ummm… stuff?

What I do know for sure though, is, I am absolutely afraid of large bodies of water, so obviously I don’t know how to swim, I love to spend time alone, in a locked room with a book, or movies, or music and most of the time, a combination of any two, sometimes combined with some other activity, I get kinda bored doing just one thing, sometimes… oh alright, all of the time, I shuffle between 3 or 4 TV shows and movies, I see a little bit of a movie, then one episode of one show, an episode of another, then back to the movie for a bit. In recent times, the only time I see an entire movie at once, is at the cinemas.
I love to hang out with friends and have a good time. I can be quite mischievous. My default speaking mode is almost constantly sarcasm. I’m an intro-extrovert. I don’t like public-speaking but once I get going, I don’t want to stop.
I have pretty bad mood swings.
I am a sucker for a boy with a pretty face, a great sense of humor, and a good dress sense, if a boy has on a nice smile, nice pair of sneakers and speaks good English, I am definitely saying “heyyy”. I have lots of crushes. I just really love me a fine boy. I absolutely love country music. I don’t know how to be patient. I worry.
I loooove Beyonce but I like to pretend I prefer Alicia keys although I do looove her too.
I like Wizkid but I would never ever say it… except now, lol… I would rather talk about Asa

Please, don’t judge me *covering my face*


Okay, post it, post it… don’t change your mind!

Goodbye’s (the saddest word)

So, I’ve seen this game on some blogs like here and here and I just had to do it too.

What you do is set your music player to shuffle and just answer each of these question with the title of songs that play.
Here goes…

1. If someone says ”Is this okay?”, you say?

Alcohol – Brad Paisley (oh! this is wierd!)

2. What would best describe your personality?

Daddy – Beyonce (too wierd!)

3. What do you like in a guy?

Can I live – Nick Cannon (But I really do loooove Nick Cannon)

4. How do you feel today?

She’s everything – Brad paisley

5. What’s your life’s purpose?

Where are you now – Honor Society

6. What is your motto?

Who you are – Jessie J (Absolutely perfect!!!)

7. What do your friends think of you?

Sunscreen speech song – Baz Luhrmann (not exactly a song but oh well)

8. What do you think about very often?

Strawberry wine – Deana Carter (How convenient… I really don’t though, not often)

9. What do you think of your best friend?

Ordinary People – John Legend

10. What do you think of the person you like?

How to love – Lil’Wayne

11. What is your life story?

When she wakes up (and finds me gone) – Tim Mcgraw

12. What do you want to be when you grow up?

I’m gonna love you through it – Martina Mcbride

13. What do your parents think of you?

The Lazy song – Bruno Mars (LMAO there is no way!)

14. Wedding dance song?

Yes/No – Banky W (Na so!)

15. What do you think when you see the person you like?

Stay Stay Stay – Taylor Swift (aaawwwww)

16. Funeral song?

When I was your man – Bruno Mars (Really?!)

17. Hobby?

Like my mother does – Lauren Alaina

18. Biggest secret?

Should’ve kissed you – Chris Brown (Right on!)

19. What do you think of your friends?

Little Moments -Brad Paisley

20. Worst thing that could happen?

Fimile (Remix) – Dark Poet (uummmm I dunno)

21. Does anyone like you?

I’m yours – Jason Mraz

22. What makes you laugh?

Greatest Love of all – Whitney Houston (I do have a huge smile on face singing this song)

23. Go back in time, what would you change?

The Future – Ty Bello (LOL)

24. Why will you get married?

Cold Weather – Zac Brown Band

25. What will you name this post?

Goodbye’s (the saddest word) – Celine Dion (and it really is)

This was uber fun, I was laughing so hard through out, some of the songs were so spot on, it was ridiculous, others were just plain ridiculous.
I hope you have as much fun reading it.