I Love you, I Don’t.

Last night, I learnt two things about you.

One, I will always love you;
Even though you’ve broken me down again and again,
Stomped on my heart, used it as a Frisbee, throwing it and not caring where it lands or who catches it,
Acting like my heart was nothing,
Like my love meant nothing.

Two, you are selfish;
I gave you everything,
You gave me almost nothing,
Taking me for granted in every way possible but I couldn’t see it,
You twisted and turned me,
Your problems were our problems.
My problems were silly.

I loved you…You know I did.
Maybe it was too much,
Maybe my love was too strong,
Maybe you knew you didn’t deserve it.

I probably will always love you
but you no longer have that hold on me.

Actually, No.
I won’t always love you.
I no longer love you.


漏Adeola Matemilola 2017

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The Nelson Mandela

I was not going to do this post. I didn’t think I had the words. I didn’t think I had the right.
I mean, who am I, to talk about you and all that you were and still are?
What words could I use to describe what you meant and still mean.

鈥淲hat counts in life is not the mere fact that we have lived. It is what difference we have made to the lives of others that will determine the significance of the life we lead.鈥
– Nelson Mandela

You lived this life. A significant life.
You loved even when hatred would seem to be the only option for a human.
Maybe that’s because you weren’t really human.
You were that higher person that each and every one of us long to be.
You fought and paid the price to be that person.
You are the true definition of giving even when no one asks for or even deserve it
To live even a fraction of the significance that is your life would indeed be living.

鈥淒eath is something inevitable. When a man has done what he considers to be his duty to his people and his country, he can rest in peace. I believe I have made that effort and that is, therefore, why I will sleep for the eternity.鈥 – Nelson Mandela

South Africa mourns
Mama Africa mourns
The world mourns

“Nelson Mandela was indeed a man of incomparable honor, unconquerable strength, and unyielding resolve…”

And the only way to honor this great man that we all love so dearly is to take lessons from his life,
continue the fight the spent his life fighting
the love he spent his life showing.
As long as we continue to work together for the peace he dedicated his life to,
Nelson Mandela lives forever.


Adeola Matemilola

What I learned while growing up; 10 things that helped me gain balance

Ahmed is one of my very best friends, he is one of those people that really know me, or you know, more than it’s normal for me to be known.
More important though, he is one of the most intelligent, loyal people in my life (LOL…easy Ahmed, don’t let your head burst oh).
Anyway, he wrote this amazing post with above title and when I read it yesterday, what I felt cannot be described, it’s not like it says anything we shouldn’t all know normally, the thing is that we run the danger of forgetting to remember them and they are the very things that as mentioned above, help us gain balance.

Please, take a few minutes, click on the link below and read it, it will take no more that 5 minutes to open and read, except you have a very slow internet connection, but even then, it’s totally worth it, you’ll be very glad you did.

What I learned while growing up