I Love you, I Don’t.

Last night, I learnt two things about you.

One, I will always love you;
Even though you’ve broken me down again and again,
Stomped on my heart, used it as a Frisbee, throwing it and not caring where it lands or who catches it,
Acting like my heart was nothing,
Like my love meant nothing.

Two, you are selfish;
I gave you everything,
You gave me almost nothing,
Taking me for granted in every way possible but I couldn’t see it,
You twisted and turned me,
Your problems were our problems.
My problems were silly.

I loved you…You know I did.
Maybe it was too much,
Maybe my love was too strong,
Maybe you knew you didn’t deserve it.

I probably will always love you
but you no longer have that hold on me.

Actually, No.
I won’t always love you.
I no longer love you.

 


©Adeola Matemilola 2017

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The Harbour

I took a walk yesterday, I wasn’t really sure where I was headed, to be perfectly honest, I’m not sure I had a destination in mind.
I took a walk yesterday, on a search for tranquillity and freedom from everyday issues.
I had only walked a short while when I came upon a place, not far away but a place I had failed to really notice through my everyday hustles and bustles, racing through life like I do.

I stood for a while taking in this place of various activities which I considered but a pause in my walk to find the perfect place of tranquillity and freedom, I never even considered this place.
Boats were docked, people boarding and getting off, boat owners shouting out advertisements for boat tours, tourists strolling around like they had all the time in the world, stopping often to gaze in wonder at one thing or the next, laughing and taking pictures, milling in and around the various exotic bars and restaurants.
And the perfectly blue-as-sky clear crystal ocean stretching on for miles and miles… Even through my acute phobia for large bodies of water, I find myself wishing I could soar just above the waters running my hands in it while I search for its very beginning.

Standing here, I could almost forget that I have to be at my less-than-satisfactory job tomorrow dealing with insatiable customers. I could forget about the millions of needs I have that there never seems to be enough time or money to meet.

I take a deep breath and let it out slowly, savouring it, it felt like the freshest breath I had ever taken and I could have sworn my lungs felt just a little cleaner.

I turn around and continue on my walk searching for tranquillity and freedom from everyday issues already forgetting all about this place I stumbled upon.

I took a walk yesterday and came upon a place.
I took a walk yesterday and came upon the harbour

 

©Adeola Matemilola 2012

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