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That look in your eyes that completes the sentences your lips start,
that tells me I am accepted wholly and completely,

The feel of your hand grasping mine that whispers that whether things get better or not, I’ll always be safe.

And when you say “I got you baby girl, forever and always”… I know that I am home.

 


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Alone. Lonely.
They say there’s a difference
But each can be like an abyss that slowly swallows a person,
Like a feeling of hopelessness that settles like a weight upon your shoulders.

What does it feel like to have no one?
To have trusted wrongly for so long that trust seems unreachable.
How does one get past having “people” and yet having no one?
How does the heart handle giving and never recieving?

Pain. Abyss. Hopelessness.

Maybe the path to freedom is that paved with acceptance.

… It’s only life.

 

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Live Actually.

Resisting… That’s all you’ve known,

Now you’re grown and resistance has become you,

Flowing through your veins like passion and blood,

Causing you to lose what should have been gain,

Causing you to live on the outside of the circle constantly… In fear of getting noticed.

Let go child, life is meant to be lived, not observed.

Fly, child, fly, let the eagle in you out and let the snail die.


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Friend.

Isn’t it funny how once upon a time,

We all played together,

Building sand castles together,

And then we each chose a partner and walked off into the sunset two by two…


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Over?

You owned me, I won’t lie,
every bit of me was wrapped up in a little bit of you,
you called and I came,
you moved and I did,
like the puppet master, you held on to the strings almost carelessly,
you had cast a spell I’m not even sure you knew about,
but it doesn’t matter now,
It’s done.
The spell has been broken.
The strings are cut.
I’m free…

and some nights, I still dream about you.


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Not quite.

From afar off, he seemed to be everything and more;

adventurous, willing, a real-life superman,

but up close; eyes locked, fingers touching, breathe intermingling,

and I see he is quite quotidian.


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